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Friday, October 28, 2011
Have You?

Gosh,I keep missing and the result is,my thoughts are keep on piling;waiting to be poured out..so here it goes..

Date: A week ago
Venue: LRT Train
Time: Afternoon

One fine afternoon,as I sat down on a chair in the lrt,I was drifted by memories that lies in my head. Memories after memories and then there I was thinking of what could have happened if it is not meant to be this way. Everything that is happening to me right now are all links.
As I look left and right, I see people with their own companions either friends, family or boyfriends/girlfriends. Then the moment of awkwardness starts as I noticed I am alone and there is no one else alone as I am,which quite puzzled me.

After minutes waiting,looking at stations after stations whenever the door opens (which I so look silly since I have nothing to do) there was a young man (which could probably around my age) sitting at a bench at the station.The moment where the door opens,I noticed he was looking down,either waiting for his train or probably waiting for someone. As I observed him,looking at his gestures,he then looked up and saw me looking at him(I was like,opps,I know it is rude to stare). But then,there he was looking through my eyes,instead of giving me the wth look,he was just like me,looking deep into our each other eyes and think deep.

I wasn't judging him but my mind somehow googled what could be his inner thoughts and feel. Is he lost?Is he searching for someone or something that is missing in his life?Does he feels alone? probably he has problems?Or could he just need someone to talk?

Bang!The door was shut and our eye contact were disconnected.I looked down and start thinking,hey,it's a 'mirror'!What am I actually looking at the person was actually my thoughts of what I felt and it is not only me feeling it that way.I am not ALONE.I was amazed of how few minutes could changed me of how I view things for a lifetime!

Thursday, April 15, 2010
A note to myself..

Dear Ainaa,

I know it is hard for you to accept the fact that he is forever gone and the feeling of hatred and pain that you are facing right now. It is never easy to get rid of them because you feel hurt and depressed that makes you cry everyday. But the thing that you shouldn't do is by doing silly things that may hurt you. You do have the right to be angry and sad. It is normal, you are human after all. There is no harm expressing your feelings but letting it out in a wrong manner will cause more injuries. You would never want to hurt the feelings the person you love because at the end, it will make you hurt and hate of yourself. Let the person to be as he is. Because that will make him special by being himself. It is part of him and there is nothing that you could do. It is up to the person to decide whether to change or not. Do not hate him but hate what he has done to you. As the saying goes, do not hate a person,hate the doings. For now, it is hard to forgive him but you have to learn to forgive. Ainaa, you should feel lucky that you have given an opportunity to have someone that loves you so much and wants to marry you. You could not blame the situation and other surroundings just to make you feel much better. It is his choice/decision to be made and you have to respect that. It is a hard decision to be made. You could not force him to choose you over some other things that are more important in his life. It is not right and selfish. You are not his priority. Live with it, Ainaa. He may do things that hurt you. He is a human after all. People do mistakes in their life and there is where they learn. Learning is a continuous process. Ainaa, you shouldn't feel bad and regret. You have done all you could to save your relationship. If it is not meant to be, it just won't happen. That is fate, but you should not give up or lose hope because certainly God will give you the best. HE always does and never disappoint you, Ainaa. Have faith in HIM. You have all the love in you. Do not waste it by filling it with hatred instead.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Yes,I know I did not post anything lately..I am very sorry for that..'Thanks'to my home wireless system,I was unable to access Internet.So,let's get it started shall we? =) Rite, I've spent my time studying with my exams that takes me three miserable weeks..Had a break by writing essay in the environmental competition n had a dinner with my darling girlfriends..Too bad that we couldn't finish up our plan which was bowling because most of them wants to go back to their hometown for holidays..hmm,but it's alright..I don't mind at all since I am not that prepared for my geology exam..hehe..Instead,I spent a day off with a senior of mine n a super senior of mine right after the day I completed my paper which was geology..We shop,shop n shop!!..lol..The next day onwards,I went to Perlis for my field trip..It was very tiring but I had so much fun with my course mates..As I come back from Perlis,I went to the office to meet one of my lecturer..Turns out, I got an offer to be in the research team..But I have to decline it since I will be staying alone in Penang and not financially secured. However, I was glad for been chosen since I am the first to be selected from the first year =)

Saturday, March 21, 2009
Darul Hikmah..

As I was waiting for my meal last night, I received a message (sms) from a friend of mine (INTEYO). She stated that there will be a trip to Darul Hikmah’s orphanage today and asking me whether I could make it. Unfortunately, I am in USM and could not join the group.
I woke up this morning and gave it a thought of the previous visit that I went on that day. Remembering those small faces who were curious about our visit and looking unhappy because they were forced to stay still..lol..We spent the morning with the kids.. playing games, singing, dancing, joking around, teasing, talking and do everything that the kids love to do. I remembered how happy they were to receive presents and eating chocolates with us. But there is one thing that I could never forget is the faces of these small kids; waiving at us as we depart home. There were tears on their faces and hoping that we stay with them. I am sure that they were expecting us to come as frequent as we could. I just hope that with my absence would not be a reason for these certain kids not to be happy since they were expecting me to come. But whatever it is, I just hope that they know that I always remember them and I am looking forward to visit them for the next trip.

Saturday, March 7, 2009
Granny =P

Hey guys..If you are an ipohrian, check out Ipoh Echo-Issue 69..My dearest granny is in it =P
Anyway, if you guys out there wants to know about it,here's the cut..

MBI Sports Club organized an Aerobathon for the benefit of Ipohties at the Polo Ground recently. The organizers had anticipated a hundred participants. However, on the day of the event 160 signed up. The response was overwhelming, said Jamunarani, the club secretary.

The contest was divided into 4 age groups between 20 to above 50. Contestants were put through a series of physical exercises lasting two hours non-stop. There were four instructors to guide the contestants, through the routines. Other than the contestants, the regular morning joggers joined in the fun.

Interestingly, the oldest contestant, Puan Khadijah,71 completed the full 2-hour aerobics unscathed and in the process, outperformed some of her more junior members. She won a consolation prize in the above 50 category. Khadijah exercises 5 days a week averaging an hour a day. She does aerobics, runs on the tread mill and does basic workout in a gym. This is possible because Khadijah's daughter, Suzyla, manages a fitness centre at Rapat Setia. 'Mum has a clean bill of health-zero problems-not even osteoporisis,'said Suzyla.

Hehe..proud of her =P

Wednesday, March 4, 2009
-Rays of Light-

In the Name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.
Praise be to Allah, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds. Most Gracious, Most Merciful. Master of the Day of Judgement. Thee do we worship and Thine aid we seek. Show us the straight way. The way of those on whom Thou hast bestowed Thy Grace, those whose (portion) is not wrath and who go not astray.

-Surah Al-Fatihah 1:17-

Tuesday, March 3, 2009
-Rays of Light-

Ask Allah for His favour because Allah liked to be asked and the best worship is prolonged hope for relief

-Hadith At-Tirmidhi-